Looking back on this past year, a lot has changed. I know a lot of people say that but this year has been an absolute rollercoaster and full of so many life changes. I started off this year hating my life at the tail end of my Disney College Program. The last few weeks of my DCP were so rough to the point where I was crying almost every day. I couldn’t wait to go back to school and have things go back to what I considered “normal life”. I got back to school and life was great and then I started to miss Disney. I knew my heart kept calling me back to Disney but my brain was telling to find a job closer to home. I followed my heart after graduation and thought I made the right choice.
Going back to Disney, I was putting myself in a long-distance relationship. I thought we could do it and make it through the year apart but I found myself very unhappy. I was missing him and taking it all out on my job. I thought my job was making me unhappy but it was honestly myself that made me so damn unhappy. I mentioned this in a previous post, but there was a point where I wanted to quit my job because I hated everything. But once the breakup happened, I realized that it wasn’t the job that made me miserable. I was so busy focusing on someone else’s happiness that I kept pushing mine to the side. I then decided it was time to focus on my own happiness.
The other day, one of my roommates said I seem so much happier and I agree with that. I found the magic in my job again. I don’t wake up dreading going to work anymore. I have found myself laughing and smiling more. I don’t worry as much about the future because I know it will eventually fall into place. Trying to focus on the positives is something I’m starting to do more and doing more of the things I love like blogging. I am finding my happiness here which was something that I never thought would happen. As 2017 is coming to a close, 2018 is looking like it will be an amazing year for me.
Like Albus Dumbledore said, “Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light”. I luckily turned on the light in a dark point of my life and I am so glad I did. I honestly couldn’t imagine my life any differently and it feels so good to be truly and genuinely happy.